I have this friend named Martin, and not only is he an amazing human, he’s a person I feel truly blessed to know. There are very few blogs I read of my own accord, and you can bet his is one of them. He’s even linked in my sidebar, because that’s what I do when I like what I’m reading. Well, Martin does this very cool thing called The Happiness Project, and considering the few rough years I’ve had, I asked if I could join in this year. Of course, he said yes.
Briefly (from Martin’s blog post), in 2017, a producer named Jared Paul hosted “The most Instagrammable pop-up in America”, Happy Place, in Chicago (it’s in Canada now). Apparently, it’s a colorful play space where you can “immerse yourself in happiness” for a few minutes. As Martin notes in his post, happiness is fleeting and the harder you look for it, the less likely you are to find it – even leading to more disconnection and loneliness (and the irony in the existence of a happiness pop-up is not lost on either of us). Instead of searching for happiness, it seems, it is much better to do the things that increase the hormones that lead to feelings of happiness, leading to sustained effect on your well-being. It should come as no surprise, then, that gratitude is on the top of the list of things to practice instead if you’re searching for happiness. In 2015, Martin documented on his blog at least one thing each day that he was grateful for, which helped him to stay positive even though trying times that year. He didn’t do it in 2016, and suffered enough consequences from the negativity all around, that he decided to pick it all back up in 2017, and he hasn’t looked back.
So, this year, I’m joining him. I am no stranger to gratitude journaling, but (and this is really no excuse) during the times I was going through all of those surgeries and procedures alone, I stopped being grateful for anything but that I had woken up the next day. Don’t get me wrong, that’s often enough, and now that I live with a mild form of PTSD and anxiety, that’s sometimes what keeps me going through a full day. However, I USED to get up every morning and journal for 5 minutes, hit the yoga mat for 15-30, and then journal again for another 5-10 minutes, before doing anything else that day. I was thriving then, and even when I wasn’t, negative things didn’t affect me as much as they do now.
Like Martin, I will return to this post every day and update with what I am grateful for and/or what made me happy that day. At the end of the year, I’ll have a record of the great things that happened over the year, and I’m doing this in pubic, so I’ll be accountable. And yes, I’m back dating, because if I wait, I’ll forget. Also, I’m living in a hotel for the first week of the year, and there’s not much to be grateful for on the surface.
Dinner with Jenn. Asked her to hold my medical durable power of attorney. She said yes.
Slept most of the day. I’m not sure why, but my executive functioning is screwed.
Mike left for AZ this morning. I get to sleep in a bed for a few days.
Did a Facebook & YouTube Live tonight. Everyone who wanted me to do it didn’t tune in to it. Eh.
Met with the surgeon. She wants to do a mastectomy, following pre-op chemo to shrink the lump.
Called my cardiologists. They’re not calling me back. This is becoming frustrating.
The diagnosis is Invasive Ductal Carcinoma. No idea on any more information. Will have to wait for Wednesday’s surgeon meeting.
Checked out the Children’s Hospital Dream Home today with Mike, as is tradition. We decided that we need to start a company that advises Architects how to make the most of livable space, because many of them don’t seem to be able to when building these mass-produced communities with 3-5 different floor plans.
Returned to Northglenn High School for the first time in 25 years to help the students build a set for their musical, Curtains. It’s my HS Stage Shop Teacher’s final show at the school.
Loving the Alien tonight at The New Buffalo Rose. I am pretty excited to do this job.
Left breast biopsy today. I’m anxious to begin healing.
Dirty Dancing in the theater tonight, for Galentine’s Day. I’m Welcome.
Friends who still love me enough to work through a two-day fight, and then meet up for blueberry pancakes and apologies.
LulaRoe Leggings. They are the most-comfortable leggings I own, so soft and comfy.
Heated throw blankets are a godsend, especially for someone like me who gets cold so easily now that I’m getting old *shiver*.
I am grateful that I have a friend who helped me get a new mac, so that I can continue to bring all (both?) of you delight with my witty posts.
January 29 – February 8
As you may have guessed, if you’re following along, since the breast cancer diagnosis, I haven’t really been doing much on this blog, because I’m launching my new business site. I am therefore grateful for the fact that I work for myself, because I have completely been spacing out this particular post. I’ll try to be better.
SNOW DAY! I tried to get out of my neighborhood, and couldn’t. SO I get to hang in the living room and “work”. I doubt much will get done. Still: SNOW DAY!
One day off in 9. SO happy I have a day to get stuff done that’s long overdue.
The Doc at my fave store wants me to stay. I would stay for him, because he makes this job really easy and enjoyable. Will keep you posted.
My procrastination is my blessing today. I was supposed to have my biz site launched today, and that didn’t happen. Turns out, I have way more to do, and launching would have been premature.
SO grateful for front wheel drive on my little Kia Soul. It gets me everywhere, even in a sideways snow storm.
Thankful that my boss in my retail job is a friend from High School, so that I can go see the doc in the middle of the day. Have a diagnostic mammogram set for February 1st, because the lump has grown in size and is now more-than-hormonally painful.
My eye doc rocks so hard. She’s convinced my eyesight is getting better, so that’s great.
SO happy that most of my doctors were at least open for booking on a holiday. Gotta get all the ish checked out at the first of the year. Also, gotta stop being reluctant to go to the docs.
Grateful that I get to hang with a Husky named Arya. She’s a typical Husky, with all the sass and talking she can muster.
Two weeks left. Will be sorry I don’t have free chiropractic anymore, though. I guess that means I’m grateful I have it now.
Two-Week Notices at shitty “retail” jobs. Today I handed in mine.
Day off. Kinda. I have plenty of freelance to keep me busy.
Dr. Sande is a great chiropractor to work with. I know I’m supposed to be grateful for any job I get, but I’m not, and I think that’s a bunch of bullshit. There are two of these docs that really suck to be around, and I can’t take their sexist, xenophobic shit much longer. I guess today I’m grateful that I have a voice and know what not to tolerate anymore.
I have a blog. It’s not a huge blog. All the same, I’m excited to have it, even if I don’t update it like I’m supposed to with this challenge. I’m even excited to be running this alongside Martin’s, even if I’m not keeping up.
Have decided to push through this retail BS and focus on putting my business back together. I have a little wiggle room to get things done, and plan to launch ASAP – but officially by February 1. I don’t want to wait that long, though, so stay tuned!
I’m so grateful that I have a little patience, because when you’re working in a retail setting people are usually so rude and entitled. I didn’t always have patience, so the fact that I’m exhibiting a modicum is another thing that’s big news for me.
It’s Payday. First car payment in 20 years. That’s huge news for me. Here’s to finally having a credit rating!
I have a sense of humor, and it’s freaking amazing. I’m literally the funniest person I know.
Got SO much done, including cleaning the road salt off of Vanellope. I believe she drives better when she’s clean. Your mileage may vary. heh.
First staff meeting of the year. The girls called me out about my crush on a patient. I don’t know what they’re talking about.
Tonight, I am grateful for exhaustion, and that my composition seems to mostly be back. It’s going to be a short night, and a long day, but Wednesday I’m off…from the retail job, anyway.
I am grateful for my group of friends that I have the privilege of watching football with, and also with whom I go to dinner regularly, as well as watch movies. I am truly blessed to have friends with some of the same interests as I have.
So grateful that I can’t remember what happened this day, because I’m updating 2 days late *gasp*. I remember that I went to my stinkin (er…awesome) retail job, and I am incredibly grateful for its existence, but not for long. Which makes me grateful that I still have the capability to work in a retail setting, and also grateful that I decided a long time ago that I didn’t like it and should focus on my businesses (English Editing for Speakers of Other Languages and Terra of all Trades).
My body’s ability to heal is astounding. I still feel like crap, but on no longer vomiting or otherwise involuntarily excreting. So grateful for that.
My body works. I haven’t been so violently ill from food poisoning, maybe ever. Nor have I done it alone in a hotel. I’m so grateful my body works to expel what’s bad for me.
Today, I got to meet my good friend Jenn at Village Inn, and we got to vent, and I’m so grateful that I have a friend that I can see every week and vent with.
Spent my first night in the hotel room, and the best thing about this is that they gave me the accessible room, so my shower head is hand-held and the tub is a little larger than normal.