I haven’t been really forthcoming on this blog about my breast cancer and what I’m going through. It’s really hard to contrast that with my constant #HappinessJunkie hashtag and my Happiness Project. Before you say anything, I totally understand that I preach about life not being a zero-sum game, and you’re allowed to feel many things at once.
Today I’m hopeful. I’m also sad and nervous about the side effects of the Chemo. In many ways, I want to track all of this so that other Congenital Heart Patients who find themselves with CANCER will have a place to go for information not only on the clinical side of the diseases, but also the emotional and physical side of what I’m going through.
Along with my weekly vlogs, I’ll be posting a weekly summary of what side effects I’m going through, including all of the emotion you can stand. I plan for the post to come out on Sunday, after I have held my live broadcast on YouTube and Facebook. Please pop over and follow me there, so I can get your questions first-hand.
So, each of these diseases are complicated, and having to go through them both is going to be hard. I’m completely freaked out most of the time. My CHD has never been an issue – at least not until November 2017 – and I will start my Chemotherapy exactly 1-year from when my pacemaker and ablation happened. I’m pretty clear headed right now, but I have a meeting with the Oncology Nurse about what to expect, and frankly I’m terrified that the chemo will kill me. I’m pretty overwhelmed right now with all of the things I need to do to prep, so I think I’m going to stop writing for now and come back at this after my meeting with the Oncology Nurse, and see if I can’t have it all sorted out by tonight.
In the meantime, enjoy my the recorded version of yesterday’s live broadcast. Don’t forget to email me your questions, or drop them in the comments.